I have a confession to make – sometimes I obey just because I don’t want to have to confess later and have to go through the whole roller coaster of emotions and energy.
You see there is this whole thing that happens.
My mind goes into this argument with itself about why I should do what I want, even though I know that I shouldn’t.
Then I reason myself into doing what I shouldn’t do.
Then I instantly know that I’m wrong and will have to confess to my husband or prayer partners and God.
Then I wrestle the desire to hide and not confess it and apologize (repent) to God for not choosing what I knew was the better choice.
Then I’m exhausted with the stupid thoughts and knowing that I’ve grieved the Holy Spirit and I can’t stand doing life without His great peace and presence.
…29Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear. 30Do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.…
I’ve heard the metaphor before that the Holy Spirit is like a gentle dove that sits on our shoulder and when grieved, lifts off to take flight.
Have you ever watched birds? They take flight quiet easily at any quick movement or disturbance.
The time is greatly shortened now that I’m older and can better sense His presence and His quick absence.
Here are just a few things that make Him take flight -bitterness, judgement, disobedience, un-forgiveness, and my all time favorite-If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.
That list is not extensive just my bigger personal wrestles.
The longer we are in the faith, the greater the sensitivity to what pleases and displeases the Spirit.
So, now you know why it’s just better to obey, whose got all that time and energy to waste?
Sometimes it’s just plumb easier.
1 Samuel 15:22