We all love differently, some of us love like dogs and some of us like cats.
Roger has a dog heart I am definitely a cat.
Let me expound on the differences.
Dog hearts are deeply loyal and fun loving. They adore always being connected to their loved one. Separation is painful and never wanted. I often have to lock Judah in the house when I am working on the back porch because he is so large and doesn’t realize how he slows me down in my focus and desire. Judah doesn’t understand that I want to go use the restroom by myself and will often lie down cry outside my door which drives me a little insane. Now I love the dog hearted people. I love their loyalty and their energy and their constant excitement and desire to be close to me. But I’m a cat hearted person and can’t be made into a dog hearted person.
A cat loves to be on their own and then totally adore their person when it’s time. We love to interrupt our person and make sure we are always number one even if we don’t want their total focused attention all the time. If I pick up one of my cats and force my attention on them they squirm right out of my arms, but if I lay down and rest they come to share my space and love on me. One of the things we had to learn early on in our marriage is that God wired us differently and we were never going to be like each other but that we can yield to the other when it was important.
Roger is never going to be as independent as I am and I am never going to want to be with Roger every second of every day but we learn to assess each other needs and by understanding our specific personalities we can serve each other without disappointment.
The more space you give it cat the more the cat adores you with intentionality and the more you understand the needs and wants of a dog the more deliberate one can be about making sure that each others needs are met.
Somehow I find it funny that God in his economy pairs up dog and cat hearts in order to have us grow in our ability to love others well that are unlike ourselves.
After 26 years of marriage I adore my man and appreciate how very different we are from one another.
What would it look like to change my life radically? To stop what I have been pouring my energy and time into for years and create something new? Next year presents a brand new chapter in my life and it’s empty of definition but full of promise. My heart bends towards the hurting and it leans into loving deeply. Add to that my need to nurture and instruct and the picture in the center of my mind begins to develop.
What place amongst the lost and forgotten does God have for me? It places a smile on my face to think of beginning again. Next year I become a commissioned minister. Julie leaves home and starts her new beginning with her young man. This new development leaves a hole in my heart like no other. I need to ramp up or sit down and wallow. I don’t believe in wallowing so ramping up is the better option.
There is nothing in the world as rejuvenating as pouring my life into others and watching the light of God come in and restore and replenish in the places of brokenness and sorrow. To create opportunities for change and rejoicing when the rule of heaven enters into a heart of chaos and redeems it. I am so excited about possibilities. I’m also scared of the loss of not only my daughter but those I love and have led. Can I handle that much loss in one year?
The problem with love is that it can’t help but feel something at all times.
God please lead me and let me not grow faint in pressing into new possibilities or back down because of fear.
Father, I thank for the incredible privilege that you would entrust your message and the display of Your glory to the Whitestone team and 12Stone.
We give you all the honor and we pray that you would pour out great unction and anointing to every member of the team today for the making of this film.
Holy Spirit we ask that you continue to work individually within them and as a team.
I pray for every member of the team and ask that you would direct and inspire them as they create as you are the master creator.
We yield to your inspiration and ask that this new “creation” (film) would draw men, women and children to a new relationship with Jesus Christ.
Father we ask that the every detail would be under your direction and that there be a spirit of unity on the set and amongst the crew.
Enfold them in your wisdom and love and may you delight in the work of their hands. Accept it as an offering and use it to the fullest degree.
We love you, and long that many more may love you, and know you as we do.
SPREAD THE MAGIC WE PRAY.
In the incredible and brilliant name of Jesus we ask these things.
Please feel free to add your prayer to mine in the comments sections and I will pass them along to the crew. Rz